Remember Who?
There's only been one person in my 20 years (excluding myself) who has brought me to orgasm...nay, there has only been one person who has ever even tried to bring me to orgasm. Likewise, this is the only person I have ever brought (or even tried to bring) to orgasm. And in the midst of my five year relationship demise, I can't help but wonder...I would say I've had a LOT of experience with sexual activities (all but intercourse, anyway), yet all of my experience is with the same person.
I'm expressing this concern NOT because I am worried about my ability to pleasure someone else in the future (nor my ability to respond to someone who is pleasuring me)...no, what I'm bothered by is this: when will I be able to engage in sexual activities and not think of him? I'm so used to him, so comfortable with him, and I've never experienced anyone else in this way. Therefore, I'm having trouble distinguishing between the concepts "this is the way I give head" and "this is the way I give ToFu head."
I'm perfectly aware that every guy might not enjoy the same things he did, but won't I "instinctively" begin sucking a new guy's dick the same way I did his? And if so, how could it not remind me of him?
I'm having a hard time getting over this.
posted by Psyche | 9:02 PM
3 Comments:
Knowing that I'm not alone rarely helps me, but people insist on pointing it out anyway. I'm going to do the same for you and hope that it helps. I've just fallen out of my first relationship which, as I gather yours was, was full of firsts. I have a difficult time reminding myself that these exciting body parts and feelings I discovered in that relationship are not unique to one person. Breasts are particular to an entire gender, not just one girl and orgasms are things that all animals have, not just the two of us. Yet, at the moment, all things sexual are exclusively hers, owned and presided over by her memory, the only person with whom I've shared these things. They're hopelessly one in the same. I'm having a hard time getting over this too. Best of luck.
...and one more thing: I got this toothpaste: Tom's of Maine unflavored homeopathic toothpaste (Why? I don't know.). I expected it to have no taste. I didn't realize that "unflavored" just means there are no ingredients added exclusively for flavor. Well, it has a taste. It tastes like her pussy. I'm not kidding. I wouldn't know if it tastes like pussy in general, but as I'm sure you know judging from your post, it doesn't matter. Having tasted only one, there is only one. I never minded the taste, but it's really the last thing I need to be reminded of every morning and every night. I just thought your mention of tofu head, might go well with my tale of homeopathic pussy...and I also just wanted to get this absurd story off my chest. Thanks for an excellent blog.
hi,
its a really bizarre experience, I found myself during sex with people after a three year relationship thinking, "gee, this is what my last partner liked, I wonder how this person will react to it" - but I felt in some way I had to re-learn sex again because I had been following a sexual routine for years that I knew like the back of my hand.
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